The time draws near?

I finally have a dream where i recognize her face. Someone I haven't seen in almost ten years. It's interesting because last night i went to a club to celebrate a friend's b-day and my sister saw someone that she knew but couldn't remember who she has and from where. I also saw someone there that reminded me of a girl i knew a long time ago in the army (it wasn't her). That would definitely of been insane but the universe doesn't work in such overt way. Her methods are subtle, meant for us to meet her half way by learning to see and understand the signs and patterns that she lays on our path.
I'm house siting for a friend (real life friend), big beautiful house, lots of bedrooms and closets (will get to that later). It starts with me driving to his house in a beat up car, which gets more beat up with my driving (just like flying,it is hard to drive in your dreams). I either take Keith or he meets me there, we hang out in the house for a while, watch a movie or play games on the xbox and then we decide to go outside to the pool. The pool is at the front of the house and it's also a sort of community pool so there are other people there. Keith jumps in and starts talking to them and playing w/ the kids (never afraid to meet strangers) while i decide to stay back because i didn't bring swimming short. Of course, Keith didn't either but got some from the house and tells me to do the same, but I don't like using others people clothes. He tells me i should go in the pool because there are people that know me there and he brings to my attention the kids playing there, I recognize one of them a girl i used to take care of in the YMCA and there are a bunch of other too, all wanting me to go in and play. I still decide to go back in the house and be alone(?). As I'm heading in, a group of teenagers, some of them whom i also looked after at the Y show up but i only recognize one of them and it's her. They all follow me inside the house and like good teenagers begin to make themselves at home. I let them hang out with the unstated agreement that they won't fuck up the house, so they start watching TV, a group of them decide to go cook something and i go to the master bedroom to chill. At some point i decide to go to the pool, all the commotion gets to me, and I begin to look for shorts in the house. I begin to look in the bedroom closet but it's filled with my friend's GF clothes, including all the fundies (a lot of them and all very interesting) so i begin to move through the house which is lined up with closets down the hall. I begin turning lights on so i can see in the closets better and all i keep finding is her clothes (how much clothes does this woman have?!) i move down the hallway towards past the kitchen, towards the end where the laundry section is ending in a second bedroom. I go in the bedroom and she's there, laying on the floor listening to music (but through an old style phone). I say hi but I'm being shy so i keep to myself, still looking in closets, when there's a knock at the window. It's some other friends coming to join them. One of them is a guy and i get temporally jealous because i think theres something going on between them so i leave the bedroom giving up my quest to find bathing shorts. I start turning all the lights that i turned on off, which for some reason is a complicated process because there are multiple buttons and tiny levers involved. Like and old computer panel from the original Star trek. The kids that are in the living room stop me to talk and they ask me what i watched last night with Keith. I tell them i watched the Matrix revolution and Wolverine which is playing on the TV at the time and i comment on how crappy the movie was (because it fucking was). Some of the reasons i give them included the fact that they used Lobo in the movie and how it was just executed badly with a horrible script, even though they had good actors and decent director. I also stop in the kitchen to see whats going on and there is a mess all over and they're trying to clean up some food that fell to the floor. There is a butler helping them pick up a casserole(?) of the floor and he tells me it's OK, he's there to help. I finally go to the family room which seems to be the only quiet/empty place in the house when i notice a pile of cigarette ashes on one of the couch's armrest. I immediately know it's from the new group and i go to confront them when i see them in the living room smoking away. Seeing that i lose it and start screaming at all of them, kicking out the new group and laying down the rules for the ones that were already there since they seem to of forgotten them. After I'm done, i decide to go to the other bedroom where she's at to she how she's doing calm down. I walk in and everything quiet, she's still laying on the floor by the bed listening to music and i sit next to her. I look at her but she has her eyes closed and I'm not sure if she's sleeping but i see her her smile so i say "hey" to get her attention and as I'm about to start talking to her i Wake up.
I fucking wake up because i fucking have to use the bathroom and of course falling asleep after is impossible. That shit never fails to happen.
Analysis: I guess she's definitely someone i know, whether it's the actual girl form the dream or not i don't know. But i also think that I'm going to see her, run into her soon. We'll see what happens.

Memory within a dream... and some attitude too

I think last night is the first time i have done this, or at least it's the first time i remember doing it. During a dream I remembered doing something from earlier within the dream. It started with me stepping outside the house (the one i currently live in) early in the morning. I notice a wooden post about 8ft(?) high with a hole on the side, like a woodpecker's nest. I get on a bicycle or tricycle, all i know it was a human powered peddling vehicle, and take off on a ride out of the complex. Everything is similar enough to the reality of the neighborhood for me to recognize it but at the same time a little bit different, like a weird alternate reality. I leave the complex and head to Winn Dixie which is a few blocks down the house, I cut across a shopping center and go in the Winn Dixie to get some eggs. I put them in the basket of my peddling vehicle and as I'm about to leave when an employee stops me and starts berating me for riding inside and takes my eggs away putting them back on a shelf next to her (i got the eggs from another part of the store). Now this entire incident is weird in itself because I obviously wasn't doing anything wrong since no one else in the store stopped me and her attitude was sort of self righteous, with her expecting me to apologize to her, leave the store and come back in to get my eggs "properly". Of course, anyone that knows me knows i don't play that game. SO i politely told her to fuck off (didn't exactly say that but what i said conveyed the same message) and that I'll never return to this store again, leaving the eggs as i ride out. As soon as i say this she realized that she had made a mistake, i guess she didn't want to be blamed for losing a customer, and began apologizing but by that point it was to late and i left (I'm also stubborn).
I leave the store and decide to walk to clear my mind and calm down. The bike disappears somewhere along the way and i cut across the shopping center. I want to point out again that it was somewhat similar to the actual one by my house but alternate reality different; I finish cutting across it when I'm on the street crossing an intersection when it's night time all of a sudden with the full moon like it actually was last night. As I'm crossing the street i start to notice these changes happening and i realize it's 1:29 am. I don't remember if i looked at my watch, i just knew that was the time, also that I'm getting disoriented as to my location and were I'm heading so i decide to go back. The reason that i can tell I'm disoriented is because i thought i was heading south but i notice the street signs and they tell me I'm heading north. I'm actually focusing on the street signs and understanding the significance of these changes within the dream. As i head back i decide to back track and cut across the shopping center again so i begin to remember which way i came out of the shopping center and what route i took to get there. By the time i get there it turns to daytime again. At some point i pass two women talking and I try to listen to what they're saying but then i wake up. I look at the clock and it's 2:00 am, which immediately takes me back to when i was crossing the street and i knew it was 1:29 with the full moon thrown in. Freaky?
Something else this dream made me think about was the attitude part because i had another one two nights ago where not only did i get an attitude but fought back against someone that was holding me.
I'm in someones house/apt, again the locations get mixed up but it's the "essence" that counts, and either friends call me or visit and we make plans to go out. A lot of other stuff happens in the meantime but it's secondary, weird also and don't remember much. Later at night my mom shows up to pick me up so we can go party (that right there is for later and when I'm on the couch) but i still have to take a shower and get ready. I go to the shower and start doing my thing when i realize that it's the master bedroom's bathroom I'm in and there's couple on the bed. I start to hurry up (oh and there's someone else in the bathroom using the sink) but the husband(?) gets out of the bed and comes towards me, grabbing me by my arm and waist and he begins to berate me for taking a shower while he's there (which i didn't know at first) and that i should be more considerate while in his house. The problem was that he's doing this with a real asshole attitude, explaining the "rules", holding me down while I'm still lathered up and with this fake wide grin on his face; and every time i try to wash the soap off my face he pulls me back to continue berating me. At that point I get pissed and decide to fight back but not physically. I decide to start vibrating my body, not convulsing like a seizure but like a guitar string or energy. Unfortunately as soon as i become aware that I'm doing this i wake up.
Are my dream super powers manifesting themselves? I understand that some of the themes in my dreams lately have to do with my real life situation but at the same time it's like half my brain is doing this and the other half is becoming aware of what I'm dreaming.

The girl in my dreams

Today i noticed a reoccurring character in my dreams. A woman that is present, always interacting with me, involved in whatever is happening. The fist time it happened, or that i noticed, was towards the end of the month when i dreamt that i was in court and i approached the prosecutor to talk to her. She told me that i wasn't supposed to be talking talking to her and my response, like always, was "I don't care", I woke up right after. Next, was one were i was at a picnic or party, and i approached a woman and started talking to her. I can't remember if i approached her because i recognized her or i just wanted to talk to her, but we talked and i enjoyed it but woke up right after a few moments of conversation. Last night she was Megan Fox and we were doing a movie, during a rehearsal or an actual scene which involved a bunch of us in a car and i started going off script and began flirting with her.
I need to point out that i do think she is pretty and has sex appeal but I'm not attracted to her or find her sexually arousing. I mention this because ppl would interpret her in my dream as me dreaming about her as opposed to the reality which was the reoccurring theme of a woman in my dreams and in this particular one my mind interpreted her as Megan fox which was because i read an article about magazines declaring a Megan fox free day and my awareness of her upcoming movie.
The significance of the dream lies in that when i was flirting with her, she kept telling me to stop because i was messing up the scene, even though she was enjoying all of it and responding back, and at a point she said, " Victor stop it".
No one has ever addressed me in my dreams as Victor, this immediately caused a slight awareness within my dream causing me to wake up. This morning i was half asleep and i dreamt i was in an art gallery, i think i was looking for something, a particular piece(?) and there was a girl with me. We looked at the gallery map and realized that the painting was in front of us. It was a painting/Drawing of a whale and under the painting there was a folded piece of paper, with the corner barely sticking out. She grabbed it, opened it up and i woke up as she was about to read it. Another night i was in the back seat of a car when cops pulled us over and asked me to step outside to ask me some questions, she was driving. Another night i was at a party or picnic and she was there and we started talking momentarily before i woke up. The other day i dreamt that i was combination g.i Joe/James bond super agent (always a favorite fantasy) on a mission and at some point she was there too. She never looks the same but the theme is always the same, she is involved in my dream, always present, always helping(?).
Could it be someone really is with me while i dream? Or maybe i just need to get some? I'm going to try and make contact with her next time i go to sleep, should be interesting and I'll definitely share what happens.

So many Dreams, So little time

Three separate narratives but all blending together. It begins in an office environment. I'm just a regular worker, going about my day like a drone, interacting with my coworkers. Then it gets a bit weird, the office floods, i become the center of attention (i didn't cause the flood). I think it's from the sprinkler system. I then switch to a house. Not mine but i live there (as it always is). One of my co-workers is also there and she starts doing business while I'm sleeping which pisses me off. I tell her and we get into a small argument. I decide to take a shower, in the living room, in front of the T.V. I realize this is a Bat to much assholeishness even for me and take it to the bathroom. Also there are people around and didn't want to cause a commotion. I get ready, pair of jean's, t-shirt, my book bag and all my gear to go on a walking adventure.
It starts off in San Andres first. Of course it's not exactly San Andres. Part of the reason for the walk was i wanted to return to other Dream places I've been to before. One was a Forrest on the side of a mountain/ in a valley. I was beautiful when i was there and something about it made me want to find it again. I need to clarify something here. The place i was looking for in this dream was a place i had dreamt about a couple of years ago. I was remembering past dreams within my current dreams. Think about that. I also wanted to find the Compound. This was a building on top of the hill where i had a small nightmare once. The compound belonged to the C.I.A. and they were conducting PSI. I got caught and they started to do experiments on me. Let's say i woke up a bit disturbed.
I started my walking journey in the "centro" of San Andres. It was full of people, blocking my way, bunch of tourists everywhere so i started cu ting through buildings. I went though a hotel (there are dozens there) and i noticed and announcements for an Out of body workshop. I wanted to attend but couldn't find where it was being held at so i continued. I got to the outskirts of the city, by that time i had picked up three stragglers. One was a black chick, maybe homeless not sure and another an older couple. The black chick i picked up while i began walking in between houses, going down the side of a hill and the couple when i we began walking the perimeter road. To one side was a large wall in different stages of construction. Kay's grandfather was one of the workers building it. To the other side was a mountain but where it connected with the road were rocks with gaps and leading to a bottomless pit. There were also some food stands along the road but they were deserted. We figured it was evening so they had closed shop. I continued walking and without noticing i had lost my companions and was now walking in Korea. My guess it was Seoul, but as far as i knew it was just any Korean City. There i meet someone else, a Korean that kept me company the rest of the trip. We entered a parking structure not like any in real life. We were going to cross it to get to another part of the city but i decided to explore it. We took the elevators, which were in a state of dis-repair evenhough the whole colpex looked well built and maintained at first. As we went up, a family joined us in the elevator. A mom and three kids, One a girl between 8 and 20. She looked annoyed so i asked her what was up and she told me " she had so much anger within her that not even Macedonia could handle it" just like that. It was the funniest thing i ever heard, a girl so angry that a whole empire could not control it. and of course the fact that an 8 y/o would know about Macedonia. We got to the top floor and when we stepped outside there was a whole amusement park/apartment complex on the roof (i just remembered a preview from a movie last night, maybe that gave me the idea for the dream?). We began walking around this insane park with rides, hundreds of people walking around and we somehow ended up in a party for a Koren kid. We walked into the apartment went to the kitchen to find food but i decided to leave, didn't feel comfortable crashing the party. But no one really paid us any attention, if anyhting we got a going away gift for "attending". Before we left, i looked in the kitchen cupboards for some sweet snacks, found these little cakes things (maybe a reference to HP6) and Left. Outside the door was a little black dog, i petted him and he started following us which bothered me because i didn;'t want to take away the family's dog and i couldn't take care of it. We went down the stairs with the dog following us until we came to picnic table with Americans on it. We sat down, chit chatted. One commented on the dog and the dog deiced to stay with him. I looked at the party gift they had given us and it was a bunch of checks with messages written in them, some were thank you notes others were advice. There was also a weird rock CD. We decide to leave and got on the elevator again. This time Sandra joined us and we started going down. The elevator was different this time. It traveled in a downward spiral and we could see through the roof outside so the mechanisms of the building and elevator. We began talking in the elevator but then the dream ended.

Dream within a dream?

I had a weird thing happen in a dream last night. I was having dinner with a girl and some other people and i started telling her a long story of something that happened to me in AIT when i was in the army. The interesting thing is that it never happened, what I told her was another dream i had that same night. It was about me working in an army grocery store, like a whole foods, and the highjinks that ensured. My dreams are becoming more vivid and behaving in a weird manner. I've been meditating more often now and also began using the Robert Monroe Cd's when i meditate. I wonder if that's affecting me? Oh and just came up w a new term... Metadream.

Kundalini and Dreaming

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Dreaming from Movies

I watched Youth Without Youth and it was awesome (post on other Blog). I think it affected me because my dreams last night had some elements of the movie. I took 15mg of Mela and 100mg of B6 plus other natural herb (onh). By the time the movie finished i was ready for bed, woke up and here is my dream (what i can remember).
It's going to be in bits and pieces because i don't remember it continuously, but of what i do remember they are very familiar in the dream, situations and environments mostly. No characters or the main plot of the movie, again as far as i can remember. I remember stepping into the shower and seeing an woman taking a shower already, it was a big shower floor, like the ones in the army. She was around 50, in good shape and it felt like i knew her. I immediately began covering myself with my hands and arms. We exchanged greetings... going to meditate and see what else i can remember. Going to focus on the bits i do and expand the image.
Didn't work, mind wandered a bit. Couldn't remember much of the other bits, it's more of a feeling of what happened. Did spend a few minutes exploring memory and either stopping the clock or ignoring it at some points that i wouldn't hear it even though i knew it was there. I know i was involved with several girls i was staying or at some point ended in a country house similar in style to the British ones. An interesting thing about how i remember the dream and know that it was a something i dreamt last night was how vivid it was. I enjoyed myself and everything that occurred to me was fun, interesting and the fact that i can remember at least that much means that if i relax when i wake up i should be able to recall better.

99% failure (?)

I'm pissed and tired. I fell asleep at 12:00 only to wake up an almost 2 hours later to just toss and turn in bed until now. The 1% saving grace to this debacle is that now I'm able to reflect on what happened and it is slightly interesting.
The past couple of hours i went through what i call "Foot in the Door" syndrome. It's where I'm half asleep/awake, spending the night tossing and turning, self aware but a the same time "dreaming". Throughout the entire night i had this thought in my head about YouTube website and dealing with "anthropological" ideas? That's the best description i can think of. Two of my friends were involved in this half-dream and what was happening was that they had an "experiment" or were involved in what i can best describe a YouTube channel dealing with "Anthropological studies". I wasn't dreaming of watching YouTube videos, it was more as if my half-asleep mental awareness was embedded in the YouTube website environment. With my eye's open i could see my room and knew i was awake but when i would close my eyes i would see my environment as the website and i was exploring "counter-videos" to the ones my friends were watching, posting or just involved with. The reason why I'm using quotation marks on theses words is because they are just the best approximation of what i was experiencing. I wasn't watching videos, or in a video, it was more as if my world view, when i closed my eyes, was based on the working of the website. The difficulty I'm having now is trying to remember the "Videos" i was experiencing when i would close my eyes. They dealt with human/cultural evolution, neolithic time frame (?), perceived ideas (my friends) and different ideas (mine). I could easily dismiss it as my brain working with the ideas I'm having for my other project but i don't think that's the case. The "videos" last night didn't directly deal with ideas for that other project. Unfortunately i can't remember what the video's were about, will make sure i write them down next time or hopefully remember later. In the meantime I'm going for a walk and clear my head. Another point i wan to stress is that i have been sleeping like this before so it wasn't because of the melatonin/B6 i took. Hopefully later i can make better sense of what happened.

Intro to Dream Time

Since i have started getting motivated into a couple of projects, I've decided to include this one that involves delving deeper into my dreams. I've always wanted to explore in depth my dreaming, hopefully culminating in having lucid/vivid dreams and being able to affect my behaviour in the dream and maybe the dream itself. It can also help me in dealing with other altered states of consciousness which is something I'm always exploring, more on that later.
I'll be doing this with the help of natural herbal supplements which is why i decided to document this, make it somewhat scientific.
I know people tend to think of specific "grasses" when someone says "Natural herb" but those don't help me with dreaming because they interfere with my dream memory. The herbs I've decided on using are Melatonin and Vitamin B6. These two have been shown to improve dream recall and increase vividness of dreams.
The purpose of this blog will be to track my progress in being more aware in my dreams and any other surprises that may arise.
Hope everyone enjoys and comments always welcome.

Tonight's Dose:
15mg Melatonin
100mg B6