I think last night is the first time i have done this, or at least it's the first time i remember doing it. During a dream I remembered doing something from earlier within the dream. It started with me stepping outside the house (the one i currently live in) early in the morning. I notice a wooden post about 8ft(?) high with a hole on the side, like a woodpecker's nest. I get on a bicycle or tricycle, all i know it was a human powered peddling vehicle, and take off on a ride out of the complex. Everything is similar enough to the reality of the neighborhood for me to recognize it but at the same time a little bit different, like a weird alternate reality. I leave the complex and head to Winn Dixie which is a few blocks down the house, I cut across a shopping center and go in the Winn Dixie to get some eggs. I put them in the basket of my peddling vehicle and as I'm about to leave when an employee stops me and starts berating me for riding inside and takes my eggs away putting them back on a shelf next to her (i got the eggs from another part of the store). Now this entire incident is weird in itself because I obviously wasn't doing anything wrong since no one else in the store stopped me and her attitude was sort of self righteous, with her expecting me to apologize to her, leave the store and come back in to get my eggs "properly". Of course, anyone that knows me knows i don't play that game. SO i politely told her to fuck off (didn't exactly say that but what i said conveyed the same message) and that I'll never return to this store again, leaving the eggs as i ride out. As soon as i say this she realized that she had made a mistake, i guess she didn't want to be blamed for losing a customer, and began apologizing but by that point it was to late and i left (I'm also stubborn).
I leave the store and decide to walk to clear my mind and calm down. The bike disappears somewhere along the way and i cut across the shopping center. I want to point out again that it was somewhat similar to the actual one by my house but alternate reality different; I finish cutting across it when I'm on the street crossing an intersection when it's night time all of a sudden with the full moon like it actually was last night. As I'm crossing the street i start to notice these changes happening and i realize it's 1:29 am. I don't remember if i looked at my watch, i just knew that was the time, also that I'm getting disoriented as to my location and were I'm heading so i decide to go back. The reason that i can tell I'm disoriented is because i thought i was heading south but i notice the street signs and they tell me I'm heading north. I'm actually focusing on the street signs and understanding the significance of these changes within the dream. As i head back i decide to back track and cut across the shopping center again so i begin to remember which way i came out of the shopping center and what route i took to get there. By the time i get there it turns to daytime again. At some point i pass two women talking and I try to listen to what they're saying but then i wake up. I look at the clock and it's 2:00 am, which immediately takes me back to when i was crossing the street and i knew it was 1:29 with the full moon thrown in. Freaky?
Something else this dream made me think about was the attitude part because i had another one two nights ago where not only did i get an attitude but fought back against someone that was holding me.
I'm in someones house/apt, again the locations get mixed up but it's the "essence" that counts, and either friends call me or visit and we make plans to go out. A lot of other stuff happens in the meantime but it's secondary, weird also and don't remember much. Later at night my mom shows up to pick me up so we can go party (that right there is for later and when I'm on the couch) but i still have to take a shower and get ready. I go to the shower and start doing my thing when i realize that it's the master bedroom's bathroom I'm in and there's couple on the bed. I start to hurry up (oh and there's someone else in the bathroom using the sink) but the husband(?) gets out of the bed and comes towards me, grabbing me by my arm and waist and he begins to berate me for taking a shower while he's there (which i didn't know at first) and that i should be more considerate while in his house. The problem was that he's doing this with a real asshole attitude, explaining the "rules", holding me down while I'm still lathered up and with this fake wide grin on his face; and every time i try to wash the soap off my face he pulls me back to continue berating me. At that point I get pissed and decide to fight back but not physically. I decide to start vibrating my body, not convulsing like a seizure but like a guitar string or energy. Unfortunately as soon as i become aware that I'm doing this i wake up.
Are my dream super powers manifesting themselves? I understand that some of the themes in my dreams lately have to do with my real life situation but at the same time it's like half my brain is doing this and the other half is becoming aware of what I'm dreaming.
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