I finally have a dream where i recognize her face. Someone I haven't seen in almost ten years. It's interesting because last night i went to a club to celebrate a friend's b-day and my sister saw someone that she knew but couldn't remember who she has and from where. I also saw someone there that reminded me of a girl i knew a long time ago in the army (it wasn't her). That would definitely of been insane but the universe doesn't work in such overt way. Her methods are subtle, meant for us to meet her half way by learning to see and understand the signs and patterns that she lays on our path.
I'm house siting for a friend (real life friend), big beautiful house, lots of bedrooms and closets (will get to that later). It starts with me driving to his house in a beat up car, which gets more beat up with my driving (just like flying,it is hard to drive in your dreams). I either take Keith or he meets me there, we hang out in the house for a while, watch a movie or play games on the xbox and then we decide to go outside to the pool. The pool is at the front of the house and it's also a sort of community pool so there are other people there. Keith jumps in and starts talking to them and playing w/ the kids (never afraid to meet strangers) while i decide to stay back because i didn't bring swimming short. Of course, Keith didn't either but got some from the house and tells me to do the same, but I don't like using others people clothes. He tells me i should go in the pool because there are people that know me there and he brings to my attention the kids playing there, I recognize one of them a girl i used to take care of in the YMCA and there are a bunch of other too, all wanting me to go in and play. I still decide to go back in the house and be alone(?). As I'm heading in, a group of teenagers, some of them whom i also looked after at the Y show up but i only recognize one of them and it's her. They all follow me inside the house and like good teenagers begin to make themselves at home. I let them hang out with the unstated agreement that they won't fuck up the house, so they start watching TV, a group of them decide to go cook something and i go to the master bedroom to chill. At some point i decide to go to the pool, all the commotion gets to me, and I begin to look for shorts in the house. I begin to look in the bedroom closet but it's filled with my friend's GF clothes, including all the fundies (a lot of them and all very interesting) so i begin to move through the house which is lined up with closets down the hall. I begin turning lights on so i can see in the closets better and all i keep finding is her clothes (how much clothes does this woman have?!) i move down the hallway towards past the kitchen, towards the end where the laundry section is ending in a second bedroom. I go in the bedroom and she's there, laying on the floor listening to music (but through an old style phone). I say hi but I'm being shy so i keep to myself, still looking in closets, when there's a knock at the window. It's some other friends coming to join them. One of them is a guy and i get temporally jealous because i think theres something going on between them so i leave the bedroom giving up my quest to find bathing shorts. I start turning all the lights that i turned on off, which for some reason is a complicated process because there are multiple buttons and tiny levers involved. Like and old computer panel from the original Star trek. The kids that are in the living room stop me to talk and they ask me what i watched last night with Keith. I tell them i watched the Matrix revolution and Wolverine which is playing on the TV at the time and i comment on how crappy the movie was (because it fucking was). Some of the reasons i give them included the fact that they used Lobo in the movie and how it was just executed badly with a horrible script, even though they had good actors and decent director. I also stop in the kitchen to see whats going on and there is a mess all over and they're trying to clean up some food that fell to the floor. There is a butler helping them pick up a casserole(?) of the floor and he tells me it's OK, he's there to help. I finally go to the family room which seems to be the only quiet/empty place in the house when i notice a pile of cigarette ashes on one of the couch's armrest. I immediately know it's from the new group and i go to confront them when i see them in the living room smoking away. Seeing that i lose it and start screaming at all of them, kicking out the new group and laying down the rules for the ones that were already there since they seem to of forgotten them. After I'm done, i decide to go to the other bedroom where she's at to she how she's doing calm down. I walk in and everything quiet, she's still laying on the floor by the bed listening to music and i sit next to her. I look at her but she has her eyes closed and I'm not sure if she's sleeping but i see her her smile so i say "hey" to get her attention and as I'm about to start talking to her i Wake up.
I fucking wake up because i fucking have to use the bathroom and of course falling asleep after is impossible. That shit never fails to happen.
Analysis: I guess she's definitely someone i know, whether it's the actual girl form the dream or not i don't know. But i also think that I'm going to see her, run into her soon. We'll see what happens.
Friday, August 14, 2009
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Memory within a dream... and some attitude too
I think last night is the first time i have done this, or at least it's the first time i remember doing it. During a dream I remembered doing something from earlier within the dream. It started with me stepping outside the house (the one i currently live in) early in the morning. I notice a wooden post about 8ft(?) high with a hole on the side, like a woodpecker's nest. I get on a bicycle or tricycle, all i know it was a human powered peddling vehicle, and take off on a ride out of the complex. Everything is similar enough to the reality of the neighborhood for me to recognize it but at the same time a little bit different, like a weird alternate reality. I leave the complex and head to Winn Dixie which is a few blocks down the house, I cut across a shopping center and go in the Winn Dixie to get some eggs. I put them in the basket of my peddling vehicle and as I'm about to leave when an employee stops me and starts berating me for riding inside and takes my eggs away putting them back on a shelf next to her (i got the eggs from another part of the store). Now this entire incident is weird in itself because I obviously wasn't doing anything wrong since no one else in the store stopped me and her attitude was sort of self righteous, with her expecting me to apologize to her, leave the store and come back in to get my eggs "properly". Of course, anyone that knows me knows i don't play that game. SO i politely told her to fuck off (didn't exactly say that but what i said conveyed the same message) and that I'll never return to this store again, leaving the eggs as i ride out. As soon as i say this she realized that she had made a mistake, i guess she didn't want to be blamed for losing a customer, and began apologizing but by that point it was to late and i left (I'm also stubborn).
I leave the store and decide to walk to clear my mind and calm down. The bike disappears somewhere along the way and i cut across the shopping center. I want to point out again that it was somewhat similar to the actual one by my house but alternate reality different; I finish cutting across it when I'm on the street crossing an intersection when it's night time all of a sudden with the full moon like it actually was last night. As I'm crossing the street i start to notice these changes happening and i realize it's 1:29 am. I don't remember if i looked at my watch, i just knew that was the time, also that I'm getting disoriented as to my location and were I'm heading so i decide to go back. The reason that i can tell I'm disoriented is because i thought i was heading south but i notice the street signs and they tell me I'm heading north. I'm actually focusing on the street signs and understanding the significance of these changes within the dream. As i head back i decide to back track and cut across the shopping center again so i begin to remember which way i came out of the shopping center and what route i took to get there. By the time i get there it turns to daytime again. At some point i pass two women talking and I try to listen to what they're saying but then i wake up. I look at the clock and it's 2:00 am, which immediately takes me back to when i was crossing the street and i knew it was 1:29 with the full moon thrown in. Freaky?
Something else this dream made me think about was the attitude part because i had another one two nights ago where not only did i get an attitude but fought back against someone that was holding me.
I'm in someones house/apt, again the locations get mixed up but it's the "essence" that counts, and either friends call me or visit and we make plans to go out. A lot of other stuff happens in the meantime but it's secondary, weird also and don't remember much. Later at night my mom shows up to pick me up so we can go party (that right there is for later and when I'm on the couch) but i still have to take a shower and get ready. I go to the shower and start doing my thing when i realize that it's the master bedroom's bathroom I'm in and there's couple on the bed. I start to hurry up (oh and there's someone else in the bathroom using the sink) but the husband(?) gets out of the bed and comes towards me, grabbing me by my arm and waist and he begins to berate me for taking a shower while he's there (which i didn't know at first) and that i should be more considerate while in his house. The problem was that he's doing this with a real asshole attitude, explaining the "rules", holding me down while I'm still lathered up and with this fake wide grin on his face; and every time i try to wash the soap off my face he pulls me back to continue berating me. At that point I get pissed and decide to fight back but not physically. I decide to start vibrating my body, not convulsing like a seizure but like a guitar string or energy. Unfortunately as soon as i become aware that I'm doing this i wake up.
Are my dream super powers manifesting themselves? I understand that some of the themes in my dreams lately have to do with my real life situation but at the same time it's like half my brain is doing this and the other half is becoming aware of what I'm dreaming.
I leave the store and decide to walk to clear my mind and calm down. The bike disappears somewhere along the way and i cut across the shopping center. I want to point out again that it was somewhat similar to the actual one by my house but alternate reality different; I finish cutting across it when I'm on the street crossing an intersection when it's night time all of a sudden with the full moon like it actually was last night. As I'm crossing the street i start to notice these changes happening and i realize it's 1:29 am. I don't remember if i looked at my watch, i just knew that was the time, also that I'm getting disoriented as to my location and were I'm heading so i decide to go back. The reason that i can tell I'm disoriented is because i thought i was heading south but i notice the street signs and they tell me I'm heading north. I'm actually focusing on the street signs and understanding the significance of these changes within the dream. As i head back i decide to back track and cut across the shopping center again so i begin to remember which way i came out of the shopping center and what route i took to get there. By the time i get there it turns to daytime again. At some point i pass two women talking and I try to listen to what they're saying but then i wake up. I look at the clock and it's 2:00 am, which immediately takes me back to when i was crossing the street and i knew it was 1:29 with the full moon thrown in. Freaky?
Something else this dream made me think about was the attitude part because i had another one two nights ago where not only did i get an attitude but fought back against someone that was holding me.
I'm in someones house/apt, again the locations get mixed up but it's the "essence" that counts, and either friends call me or visit and we make plans to go out. A lot of other stuff happens in the meantime but it's secondary, weird also and don't remember much. Later at night my mom shows up to pick me up so we can go party (that right there is for later and when I'm on the couch) but i still have to take a shower and get ready. I go to the shower and start doing my thing when i realize that it's the master bedroom's bathroom I'm in and there's couple on the bed. I start to hurry up (oh and there's someone else in the bathroom using the sink) but the husband(?) gets out of the bed and comes towards me, grabbing me by my arm and waist and he begins to berate me for taking a shower while he's there (which i didn't know at first) and that i should be more considerate while in his house. The problem was that he's doing this with a real asshole attitude, explaining the "rules", holding me down while I'm still lathered up and with this fake wide grin on his face; and every time i try to wash the soap off my face he pulls me back to continue berating me. At that point I get pissed and decide to fight back but not physically. I decide to start vibrating my body, not convulsing like a seizure but like a guitar string or energy. Unfortunately as soon as i become aware that I'm doing this i wake up.
Are my dream super powers manifesting themselves? I understand that some of the themes in my dreams lately have to do with my real life situation but at the same time it's like half my brain is doing this and the other half is becoming aware of what I'm dreaming.
Monday, August 3, 2009
The girl in my dreams
Today i noticed a reoccurring character in my dreams. A woman that is present, always interacting with me, involved in whatever is happening. The fist time it happened, or that i noticed, was towards the end of the month when i dreamt that i was in court and i approached the prosecutor to talk to her. She told me that i wasn't supposed to be talking talking to her and my response, like always, was "I don't care", I woke up right after. Next, was one were i was at a picnic or party, and i approached a woman and started talking to her. I can't remember if i approached her because i recognized her or i just wanted to talk to her, but we talked and i enjoyed it but woke up right after a few moments of conversation. Last night she was Megan Fox and we were doing a movie, during a rehearsal or an actual scene which involved a bunch of us in a car and i started going off script and began flirting with her.
I need to point out that i do think she is pretty and has sex appeal but I'm not attracted to her or find her sexually arousing. I mention this because ppl would interpret her in my dream as me dreaming about her as opposed to the reality which was the reoccurring theme of a woman in my dreams and in this particular one my mind interpreted her as Megan fox which was because i read an article about magazines declaring a Megan fox free day and my awareness of her upcoming movie.
The significance of the dream lies in that when i was flirting with her, she kept telling me to stop because i was messing up the scene, even though she was enjoying all of it and responding back, and at a point she said, " Victor stop it".
No one has ever addressed me in my dreams as Victor, this immediately caused a slight awareness within my dream causing me to wake up. This morning i was half asleep and i dreamt i was in an art gallery, i think i was looking for something, a particular piece(?) and there was a girl with me. We looked at the gallery map and realized that the painting was in front of us. It was a painting/Drawing of a whale and under the painting there was a folded piece of paper, with the corner barely sticking out. She grabbed it, opened it up and i woke up as she was about to read it. Another night i was in the back seat of a car when cops pulled us over and asked me to step outside to ask me some questions, she was driving. Another night i was at a party or picnic and she was there and we started talking momentarily before i woke up. The other day i dreamt that i was combination g.i Joe/James bond super agent (always a favorite fantasy) on a mission and at some point she was there too. She never looks the same but the theme is always the same, she is involved in my dream, always present, always helping(?).
Could it be someone really is with me while i dream? Or maybe i just need to get some? I'm going to try and make contact with her next time i go to sleep, should be interesting and I'll definitely share what happens.
I need to point out that i do think she is pretty and has sex appeal but I'm not attracted to her or find her sexually arousing. I mention this because ppl would interpret her in my dream as me dreaming about her as opposed to the reality which was the reoccurring theme of a woman in my dreams and in this particular one my mind interpreted her as Megan fox which was because i read an article about magazines declaring a Megan fox free day and my awareness of her upcoming movie.
The significance of the dream lies in that when i was flirting with her, she kept telling me to stop because i was messing up the scene, even though she was enjoying all of it and responding back, and at a point she said, " Victor stop it".
No one has ever addressed me in my dreams as Victor, this immediately caused a slight awareness within my dream causing me to wake up. This morning i was half asleep and i dreamt i was in an art gallery, i think i was looking for something, a particular piece(?) and there was a girl with me. We looked at the gallery map and realized that the painting was in front of us. It was a painting/Drawing of a whale and under the painting there was a folded piece of paper, with the corner barely sticking out. She grabbed it, opened it up and i woke up as she was about to read it. Another night i was in the back seat of a car when cops pulled us over and asked me to step outside to ask me some questions, she was driving. Another night i was at a party or picnic and she was there and we started talking momentarily before i woke up. The other day i dreamt that i was combination g.i Joe/James bond super agent (always a favorite fantasy) on a mission and at some point she was there too. She never looks the same but the theme is always the same, she is involved in my dream, always present, always helping(?).
Could it be someone really is with me while i dream? Or maybe i just need to get some? I'm going to try and make contact with her next time i go to sleep, should be interesting and I'll definitely share what happens.
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